Lately, I have noticed that I have improved a lot. I remember when I was 14 and I was so desperate to become a comic artist who had the skill to make realistic human characters that still looked very cartoonish, with a unique style and lots of action and emotion in it. Back then, I got so frustrated with my art because I wasn't anywhere near where I wanted to be. But lately, I have finally reached that point where I started becoming proud of my artworks. The only one that I really like in my gallery right now is the last sketch I posted, so from this point on I will try to draw more and upload it. I finally reached that point where I can also draw decent backgrounds and compositions, which I will definitely try to improve even more!
On another note, I have decided to go back to art college. For those who didn't know, I was forced to quit last year because of a really bad depression and other issues. I'm happy to say that most of this has started to get a little better and it's helping me to feel better and me as a person. I feel like I finally grew out of that really hard phase that I went through as a teenager. I used to be really hostile and hurt all the time, but now I can finally have normal conversations with people, even if they do criticise me. Though I have to admit that whenever someone goes too far and I find it hard to stand up for myself, it results in slight panic attacks. But still, it feels nice not to feel like the whole world is against me. This is all very new, though.
Another thing that has really kept me going through some really, really dark times, was writing. I wrote a lot together with my best friend (who is totally awesome and talented and supportive and I am so grateful to have someone like him) as well as on my own. I took on the cliche of werewolves vs. vampires and made it into a slightly more humane story, kind of like Twilight but still respecting the concept of these creatures. I hope the story contains a well balanced amount of drama, horror, action and even a bit of romance. Wish I could post it here, but it's in Dutch!
I also found a new room and possibly one with a studio. Yep, my own personal studio. I would be so happy if it actually worked out. The one with the studio is actually some kind of showroom but there is a bathroom and a kitchen in it, which, if it works out, only I would use. That would provide me with enough space and a whole bunch of privacy. Also kind of scary, since I don't always handle being alone very well. It would be a good excuse to invite people over all the time, though.
And lastly, I have been working on some costumes again. Next week I will go to a con called FantasiaFest with one of my friends, who will also spend a few days at my (dad's) house, while my dad is out on vacation. And the weekend after that I will go to Castlefest too, with another friend.